Today I finally copyrighted 10 literary works I have so much but have to start somewhere. One of the literary works was titled Roadrunners Don't Exist in NJ. I did a photoshoot taken during the Fall 2018 tour of the campus. That light on the bottom left is me I felt it was a sign for me to transfer in here. Vaughn College was in Queens. Ramapo College was closer and I ended living right around the corner from the college. It's a beautiful place it has all the amenities and my classmates were all very good and intelligent. I did go through a phase were I wanted to be farther in life and didn't want to be around drugs and kids. I rarely related to my classmates on the same adult level as myself. Most were 15 years younger than me and my Professors I thought were all 10-15 years older than me. But I recently learned that I am actually older than the trio of Professors and some of the other woman who have been toxic towards me? When a woman is in her late to mid 30's that not the time to engage in these behaviors? It makes no sense to me and shocking as I thought they all were in menopause and angry at me? I feel bad for stereotyping woman 50+ now and learned it's not the age, occupation, race it's the character.
“Roadrunners Don't Exist in NJ”
I know those words you said to me were not true but I can’t get them out of my mind How can I come back to a place like this? Am I betraying myself by contemplating this Or am I Saving my soul from more Abuse? A home in the mountains so true It was like a dream that was new Burgundy red mist sunsets with glowing green mountain tops so serene but not a dream No Loyalty no Honor Fake Liberal Encouraged to fail crash and burn embers still burn
I wrote this when things were really toxic at my college. I even dropped out Spring 2019 semester and I audited Professional Camera Format with my advisor. My advisor was a living legend he worked 20 years retired and came back for another 20 years. He convinced me to not drop out and how I was treated just like a number at one of the biggest liberal colleges in America. He was upset but talked me out of dropping out of college. I had already two Associates Degrees and felt a Bachelorette Degree would open more doors for my future. My last year was really tough and I didn't feel safe after being harassed by staff. I transferred into this college I survived so much before this and never expected to deal with more losers. There are some good people here and good times but this bad stuff kind of overrides the positive as it's that toxic. I will do another blog on the good information I am trying to document what I had put on Facebook on my IG I am a few years behind. On the last day of class the semester that I audited they installed a lock on my classroom door not to ease my mind but to only protect themselves. As I had voiced my opinion months before hand and I realized this area of the country is all about reputation. If somebody is brave enough to expose who you really are they are usually facing retaliation. Not realizing that this area is a very detached unemotionally immature and spiritually unwell place. I have always been very outspoken for the truth and social justice and community issues. What's worse is that bad behaviors did not stop the aggressor known colleagues gave me a few issues here and there. But my last undergraduate class was the worse December 18, 2020.
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